If you don’t know who you are…

…How can your dreams come true?

My triathlon season is 5 days away from kicking way back up into high-gear.  On Sunday I’ll be in DC racing the Nations Tri- a pretty big and competitive Olympic distance race. I am feeling very confident about myself and firmly believe that what you believe is what you will make happen.  The opposition is going to be fierce so I will take it for what it is, however, after doing some research lately, I’m coming to believe that our minds are our only limiters and that believing in yourself, you can push through any pain that you believe limits you!  After this race, I have a week off before Ironman 70.3 Augusta, my third half ironman of the season.

But lately I’ve been somewhat questioning myself- not questioning my ability, but questioning WHO I am racing for.  Recently, it has seemed that I am not grinding through hard workouts solely for myself, but so that I can work harder, work more, and live up to the expectations of the people who follow me.  Whether it be coworkers, friends, my family, and even all the other triathlete I interact with on Twitter… What if they are doing more that me, what if they rode their bikes 60 miles and I only rode 50? Well what F**king if?!  If I do “less” than another person, does that make me a worse athlete?  Does it mean that I then need to eat way less to make up for that?  I’ll let you decide on what you think the answer is…

Who cares?  I need to race/train/LIVE for me, not anyone else. But this being said, let me train, race, and eat because of them, not for them. It is motivation to see the success of others- people who have turned from non-athletes to Ironmen, of for people who cannot do what I do as much as they’d like to. Or even for those who have NO desire to do anything I do–I know my mom is absolutely no way wants to do a half-Ironman, but I do know that she is proud to watch me race in HEALTHY, competitive, properly nourished fashion.

So who am I? I’m someone who races for the love and passion of it all- not to be “better” than anyone else, or, God forbid, for an excuse to all myself to eat.

Go time

What really has me excited and nervous though, is my impending ITU Long Course Championships triathlon in Las Vegas in November.  This race, as I’ve mentioned, is on the world stage and is going to require a lot of hard work from me starting… well a month a go, ha. I got my registration notice in my e-mail today and have to sign up by the end of the week (gulp!)  The race is like a 3/4 ironman so it will be the longest race I’ve done to date.  But you know what?  Who knows when I will get this chance to be part of Team USA again?  It will be hot, hilly, windy, and unforgiving… But I’ll finish… and I’ll finish strong.

And check out the new Team Apex Endurance gear I’ll be repping for the rest of the season!

I missed all the rides I had planed this weekend, but was really proud of myself for getting out and putting in work on my own.  Sunday I did a 4.5 mile run, 25.5 miles bike, 3.2 mile run, 60 minutes on the spin bike (20 miles), and another 1.6 mile run. Then Monday, I used the same format, but made the outdoor ride 10 miles longer.  Dude, the wind was BRUTAL this weekend!  This was all on the old Felt too, as the my baby, my B12, is en route to DC!

So if you’re in DC this weekend, let me know and let’s meet up!

I also know its been forever since I’ve blogged!  Here’s a quick recap of my why and whats been going on:

First I was in New York with the family for a day (and got to meet up with Katelyn!)

Me and Katelyn and the legendary Dinosaur BBQ!

After that, the family and I went to a lake where I got to spend another day with them before jetting off the Virginia Beach for work

Sister, me, brother, and brother's girlfriend

After spending the week in Virginia Beach, it was back to Tampa for a weekend or so. Got some good training in and some awesome homemade grub.  I’ve basically just been using coconut oil to bake butternut or sweet potatoes fries… um like every night. So healthy, and if it tastes good, why not, right?? I have like 30 different variations now, haha, so just ask if you want to know what they are.

Paleo chicken fajitas in Virginia Beach- lettuce wraps, no vegetable oils cheese or beans, and instead extra avocado!

Butternut squash fries in coconut butter with some raw cheddar cheese!

Then, later that week, I had to fly to Atlanta for work for a couple nights.  Finally I’m home, but I’m flying to DC Friday morning for the race! And, yay, I get to fly home just hours after the race to be back at work Monday… whoop whoop!

Shredded sweet potato mixed with parmesan cheese and baked- made like some little cheese crackers... not bad!

Have some leftover coconut oil from you fries? Coat some avocado slices with it!

After baking the avocado- these actually came out really tasty

Classic almond butter sweet potato fries, but with some coconut cream (coconut butter) mixed into the "batter"

Think about something you do that your are passionate about… now ask yourself WHY you are passionate about it?  Rekindle that love for it and do it for you!

  1. What is that thing you are most passionate about and why?
  2. Best thing you had to eat this week? And how do you use coconut oil, if you don’t, any reason why?
Have an amazing week!

"To thine own self be true"


14 thoughts on “If you don’t know who you are…

  1. Great post Chuck.

    We live in a world (triathlon) that we see those around us doing more or less or harder or easier workouts and we start to compare but the problem with that is we have no clue where they are in this sport. They may be newbies or they may be 10 year vets.

    Learn from others but do what you need to do for yourself. Train for your race and not somebody else’s.

    Kill it this weekend. I am fired up for you and seeing the results of all your hard work.

  2. Heya Chuck, loved the post absolutely fantastic and an inspiration as always. I’m always thrilled to hear how you are getting on, no matter what you are doing 🙂

    Actually I’ve been reassessing myself why I do the things I do recently. Works been really bogging me down as I’m still battling equipment failure. Then I received my viva assessment report and it said this:

    “Marcus is doing well and is clearly very talented. We support his transfer to PhD, wish him well for his second year and will be looking forward to read his second year report.”

    Now I’m not one for pride usually but it reminded me, I am good at what I do, I’ve learned a boat load and I’ll continue to do so cos science is my passion and I enjoy struggling through and gleaning new insights.

    As for question 2? Hands down the eggplant curry at work yesterday. Considering the cafeteria has dihed out food thats made me physically baulk in the past I was shocked and pleasantly surprised by how good it was. That and I’m a sucker for both eggplant and curry. Win win.

    Keep up your hard work man, both physical and mental, and I’m sure you’ll knock the socks of many this weekend.

  3. Good luck this weekend Chuck!

    I’m actually thinking of this topic more as I’m coming off my injury and not able to do as much as before. I just feel like I’m letting so many people down including my team and such. It’s silly I know and if I ease back into it-I’ll do better but anywho.

    I have never actually tried coconut oil. I want to but I think it will have to wait until I get back home and can find it. Shocking they don’t have any in Potsdam.

  4. Excellent post Chuck! You nailed it, you have to train/live/and just be for YOU! I know I definitely struggle with that at times but I truly believe that I am finally reaching the point where I need and want to do what is best for me : )
    Looks like you’ve had a crazy busy but fun last week or so! I was actually thinking of you the other day wondering when you’d post! Good luck this weekend!! Thinking of you!
    Katie : )

  5. I stumbled upon you via Scott’s blog… I must say triathletes always impress me… I’ve never done one in fresh water – always too scared…

    Also, sweet potato fries intrigue me – I love sweet potatoes, but have never tried them for some reason… you make me want to.

    Good luck!

  6. Rock it in DC! You’ve definitely been traveling a lot, but it sounds really satisfying. And your eats look great for sure–I’m going to have to try out the shredded sweet potatoes w/ cheese cracker things soon. They sound delish!

  7. Chuck, you are awesome 🙂 I get caught in this trap too often too, doing something I once enjoyed for ME and now doing it for other reasons, be it to please others or whatever. You really remind me to take a step back and reconsider what I am spending my time on and why. I think it is really important.

    GOod luck on the race! Such great news on the racing front for you 🙂 I know you will do great, and have an awesome time! Enjoy every second of the experience! 🙂


    Oh and the questions!

    I am really passionate about coffee, and biking, but I have so many other hobbies as well! Photography, cars, you name it!

    And I haven’t had coconut oil :0 I just haven’t thought to buy it! I want to try it now though, after reading all your delish recipes 🙂

    Have a great one! And if I don’t talk to you before then, have a FANTASTIC race! You will, I know it 🙂


  8. I totally hear you. That competitive voice in your head has you gunning for the next guy. I posted just like this a week or so ago and Jason’s reply was the same there as well. It has to be for yourself. Your longevity, your love of racing, your healthier lifestyle, whatever it may be. And if that ain’t enough, stuff this one in your back pocket: you and your story inspire and motivate me every day.

  9. Yeah, you really have to be doing it for yourself or else you’re going to be pretty unhappy. I find a lot of times people (especially amateur athletes) are trying to live up to expectations that aren’t really there. You know how many people actually care how many miles you run/swim/bike everyday? Just 1 – you.

    Would anyone be upset if you decided you didn’t want to compete anymore and adopt a more balanced exercise routine? Highly, highly, unlikely.

    Its one of the reasons I don’t mention my workouts much unless someone asks. I don’t want others to try and emulate my routine, or feel inadequate for doing less. Someone out there is always doing more, and many more are doing something different.

    From a competitors standpoint, sure you need to be aware of what those around you are doing, but it’s much more important to find what works best for you.

    Best of luck in the upcoming races. I hope, and I’m sure you’ll do well, but your placement won’t change my opinion of you.

  10. This is a great post! and you are so right, you are only person who stands in the way of living out your passions. Its no one else race but your own. You know what is best for you, you know whats best for your body! Hope the race went well! Cheers Chuck!

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