Four months between posts is far too long, but I didn’t know where to start and when the right time to post again would be. I’m back in Tampa and have been since November and I’m loving it and the beautiful weather! I completed treatment in late October and flew back to DC for a couple of days to spend time with my family and then they flew back to Tampa with me to help me get resettled. Thanks to the storm, we got stuck in DC for 1 few extra days, but it was not big deal.
Moving back into my apartment was rough and scary–mostly because I was afraid my refrigerator would have shut off and melted all over my apartment or something–but honestly it wasn’t too bad! Since then I’ve been working a lot trying to catch up on everything and move ahead. That’s gone fairly well, especially with some unexpected turnover that left me reporting to a number of different people.
But whats new right? How am I doing? At this point, pretty well! I get to see my friends a lot more than I was before. I haven’t been able to workout with them or go to swim practice as much as I’d like because of work getting in the way a lot or traveling for work or the holidays. Eating is going well, it is definitely hard on some days though when I look in the mirror. Sometimes, I’m actually pretty happy with how I look but other times it’s very hard. The mirror is ok, but pictures are very difficult, to be honest. I know it probably may seem to others like I’m still struggling, and at times I really am, but I’m pushing myself every day at new struggles. I’m still really trying to figure out what’s right for me in terms of eating and exercise. I want to build muscle and get stronger but I also want to get back into competitive triathlon shape BUT NOT in a disordered way. Those 2 goals are just difficult to balance in terms of energy balance and how much and what one needs to eat to build muscle while getting faster. I just really don’t want to look like I did before though, that’s for sure! But most importantly, I don’t want that to be what my life is about. I’ve been able to go out with friends and not talk about triathlon at all and holy crap its amazing! Like going to watch 2 amazing friends get married. Oh, and the week before that, on New Years eve, 2 other amazing friends got married, but I couldn’t make it as I was still up in DC!
But in triathlon news, once I again I have been selected to race for the 2013 Wattie Ink Elite triathlon team! Wattie Ink are amazing though and selected me while allowing me to explain my situation and said that for to me to race longer than an Olympic distance triathlon would be dangerous to my recovery. I’m looking forward to traveling to the races I can and meet and support teammates even if I’m not racing.
Christmas was great and I got to spend a lot of time home with family–including my brother and sister who I hadn’t seen in a year! We went to Rochester, NY, immediately after Christmas and got 18-inches of snow on our first night there… damn I love Florida! That whole snow thing without having anything more than 1 big coat isn’t fun. I need some boots I guess? Maybe I should just keep a pair in Rochester.
And in more immediate news, HOCKEY IS BACK! I went to the Lightning’s opening game against the Capitals on Saturday–a friend from work had VIP box seats, so that was pretty awesome! The Caps are my favorite team, but it was good to see the Lightning win!
Well I know this was all over the place as I tried to fit 4 months into a few paragraphs. But I want to start writing more often as I’ve got some fun things in the work. I miss all my friends at the ERC like crazy but know I’ll see them again in a healthy way soon.
Thanks for reading y’all and thank you for everyone who has embraced me in my return and been so helpful.